remember how i said yesterday that i will just wing it, and usually those are the best days?
well yesterday was not one of those days. it was awful.... to say the least.
ive been feeling a little out of sorts recently. ok... not a little... a lot. you know that feeling you get when everything just seems to be crashing down on you like waves. wave after wave and you are about to go under and drown in the sea. yes? i have struggled with anxiety a lot. i struggle feeling inadequate, guilty, insecure, unmotivated, impatient, and down right disliking myself. why?....i have no clue! i have so much to be grateful for. i have SO MUCH!
on a side note... i think my meds are wonky and i dont think im taking the right meds for me.
did i just throw that out there???
yes.... i take medication for depression and anxiety.
it was really hard for me to get to the dr. i felt that they would just say, "well, you have 3 young children and a husband with crazy schedule and everything else that life throws at people", and just send me on my way.
but, they sat down with me and asked me questions and believed me that something wasnt right and that something could be done. when i left the office i felt a sigh of relief, a burden lifted off my shoulders.
my family didnt have to suffer my crab face anymore. i could be "normal" again.
anyway... i could go on and on about this subject and about my story.
so, lets talk.